I've come to the conclusion that I HAVE TO get a new job. Not just, "oh, if something interesting comes along, I'll apply". No. It's more like "if I don't get out of here soon, they're going to take me out in a straightjacket". I can't take it anymore. Maybe I'm a wimp. Could be. But mostly I feel like this place is wearing me down further and further and I can't continue to work this way. It seems like every day there's something new that is a problem. It started with increased cost and deductible for our health insurance. Then we found out we had to take 10 days off without pay over the next year. Then I found out my comp days were taken away. Now I'm being expected to help other people because in a way I can't disclose publicly, my responsibilities have been reduced. Not by much, but a little. Enough that I wouldn't have to be franticly working to stay above water allseason, but could relax a little. Now I'm expected to "insert myself throughout the office". I'm sorry, but wtf does that mean? I'm supposed to go around asking other people if they need help? Basically, this puts me back where I was before I got my promotion: everyone's helper. And I'm not interested. I worked hard to prove that I could handle being in a more managerial position, and I think I've earned it. And now they want to push me right back down. I'm tired of being angry and frustrated all of the time. This is not what I signed up for.

I feel that major change in my life is imminent. I am frustrated with my job, and I'm tired of being frustrated. I don't think I expect too much, but my expectations are constantly unmet. The CEO (my supervisor's supervisor) doesn't seem to appreciate or acknowledge my hard work. I pump over 40 hours a week into this job. One of my co-workers gets away with all sorts of horrible behavior, and no one calls him on it. I'm tired of being good and not getting any credit. I'm going to start searching the classified ads for something that won't be so draining, stressful and pointless. What I do here is supposed to be meaningful, but it's not. All meaning is taken away by the fact tht the CEO seems to want to get everything he can out of us before we overload and quit. I'm not usually one to just give up, but I'm heading down that road at breakneck speed right now.